"I had an addiction to Cocaine & Crack; I lost everything: my home, my family, my ability to function in society. Homelessness & addiction has been my life for the past 8 years. When I hit rock bottom, I didn’t care about anyone else, their feelings, what I was doing to them.
I asked my Mum to take me to Switzerland so that I could access euthanasia. My Mum refused. I could see no way out of my lifestyle and tried to gas myself in a car, a passerby pulled me out, and I was sectioned under the mental health act and hospitalised for 6 weeks. I was 22 at this point. I was assessed and diagnosed with Autism, ADHD & EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder) while sectioned.
My Mum always knew I was not right, and there was something amiss, but no one had ever listened. I have been supported through counselling and medicated to support my diagnosis. I slowly became more stable, enough to be released.
At this point, I ’surrendered’ and knew I needed help. I was in a very dark place, the darkest I had been. I found the Amber Foundation in Surrey, a charity who support homeless young people, who are in recovery. The Amber Foundation supported me back into education and employment and ultimately into my flat. I moved into Amber and remained there for a period of 7 months; regularly being drug tested, staying clean, having regular food, support around my medication, counselling and taking part in their training programme. I was starting to have a clear head for the first time in 8 years. After 7 months, it was time to move on and become more independent. In March of this year I took on a private rented flat in Horsham, it is small but its mine, I have an apprenticeship doing groundworks, I am happy and feel settled.
I still sometimes have bad days, and I still need support from Mental Health Services. I am starting to attend family counselling, to rebuild the damage I have done to my family over the past 8 years. I am happy and working hard."